Hopefully everyone that clicks on my link even if you do not donate I would love to tell you why I continue to run for my mental health and for this great organization . This is my own personal story, of why I ran my first Chicago Marathon and why I continued my tradition.
I have always been active , and ran, but I never ran organized race till 2008, except track in HS. My first half marathon was in 2009, my first full in 2018 right before my 40th birthday and being officially divorced . 2017 I began going through horrible divorce including nasty custody battle, after dealing with physical and verbal abuse, infidelity, and emotional trauma for many years. I was told daily how fat , ugly, stupid, a horrible mother I was. I could never do better, no one would want me., I was a terrible human being. One day I voiced I wanted to run a full marathon , yep I was laughed at, I was told I could never be good enough I would never finish .
An email came with great opportunity during all the court preceding to run for cancer patients in one of the top 10 Marathons, it was fate I couldn't pass it up The first year I finished, with not great training, but I finished in under goal time. Not only did I finish , yay for me because I was not that fat stupid ugly person I began to believe I was but a fighter to finish. Also I was able to get involved with this great charity pairing cancer patients with mentors who have been through the same diagnosis, fears, and treatments, So no one has to face cancer alone, no one should have to do anything alone
During the pre-run dinner I heard Johnny speak of his journey, fears, and why the foundation was created. I meet some incredible survivors, other runners who running for friend, family, someone who passed on or a survivor in remission.. This all put me to tears, and if you know me well, you know I am not a crier, I don't tear up or emotional I am that tough girl ER nurse bad ass who has a heart of steal, don’t screw with me attitude, I had learned many years prior crying only brought on more abuse.
i remember the day I needed surgery, how easy it was to fool people including my coworkers everyone thought it was Rhabdo from working out and to many burpees but what no one knew was it had been from being thrown taking a hard hit to the hardwood floors. That day started being a wake call to me, and I slowly began getting back my will power to stand up for myself, I would become that fighter everyone believed I was.
Each year I look at where I was that scared women, who couldn't stand up for herself against that one person who still always has a wall up because of being afraid not just emotionally but physically of being hurt again. It is so easy to hide, everyone is so busy with their own lives they miss when others are sick, hurting, need help. not a single sole knew what I was dealing and living with..
Here I am running again for me, for my mental health, I am capable of running a marathon I have proven that times 2. . I am not that fat ugly stupid person I began to believe I was. Two I am running for those with cancer because they are scared too, afraid to speak up, ask for help, ask for someone to talk to, I can offer be strength in what I do for those with cancer.
So I hope you see that is more than just another person asking for donations . Your donations is helping 2 causes cancer patients and my well-being . I will continue to run for my mental health as it is the cheapest therapy but now I know what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
Thank you for reading, it has taken me many years to be able to share just a small bit of why I run. I run to raise my for a good cause and its cheap therapy.
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