I think that the hardest part about living in a pandemic is the feeling of helplessness. We have no idea what the future holds for us, and for the first time in a very long time, we have no clear picture of what our lives will look like in one year. As I approach the end of my senior year of high school, I have been faced with so much uncertainty. Not only am I moving on to study at a new school in a new state, but I am doing so in the midst of one of the craziest times in recent history. But the one thing that has just really stuck in my mind, radiating above the doubt and fear is that I need to finish this chapter of my life the right way.
For those of you who know me well, you know that around this time each year I perform in a small recital for the Play it Forward Scholarship Program, sharing a piece of what I have learned on my French Horn with some close friends and family. It marks the end of another year of making music for me, and it serves as a showcase of how much that I have grown in the past year. When I received the email confirming my suspicions about the cancellation of our annual recital, I was disappointed. I had been working on a particularly challenging piece to end my senior year with- a great musical challenge that would require hours of practicing to accomplish. The next day as I picked up my horn to play, I began to think about why I play the french horn in the first place. I play the french horn because despite all of my challenges throughout the treacherous years of middle and high school, the french horn has allowed me to feel powerful. With its majestic and beautiful sound, I have the ability to be fierce, powerful, confident, and bold. And as I started to play, I began to feel powerful. I decided that I wasn’t going to go out that way, my senior year left unfinished like a beautiful scarf unraveling at the very end. So, I have decided to have my senior recital after all.
On May 31st, 2020 at 3pm EST, I will be hosting my senior recital virtually through Facebook. Along with this recital, I will be running a fundraiser for the Play It Forward Scholarship Program- a program that has allowed me to accomplish so much through giving me access to some of the most phenomenal private teachers in Georgia. Through this fundraiser, I hope to give another student the opportunity to be blessed with the same experiences that I had through the program. My goal is to raise $1680, or the cost for one student to participate in the program for a year, by May 31st. The Integral Steps nonprofit program, a partner of Play It Forward has been graciously helping me to complete my goal! They promote balanced integrative education, serving many individuals, families, and communities. Throughout the next couple of weeks, I will be sharing more of my story regarding how Play It Forward, the french horn, and music as a whole have touched my life. I will also be working with Integral Steps to try and give back to the Play it Forward program as much as possible! I hope that you will join me in making a difference in this way. Together, we can help. We can make a difference in someone’s life. And what better way to do it than through music?