I was so tired.
After a hard ministry experience and moving away from home and everything familiar, my family landed in Atlanta to train for an adventure in church planting.
Did I mention I was tired? No, exhausted. I really didn't know if I had gas in the tank for this.
What I needed were friends with whom I could be honest. Ministry partners who understood the tired and would allow me to not perform. Just show up and have someone listen and love.
The ministry that surrounded me in those days was Parakaleo. These women were real. They had no pretense about the fact that each one of us, as church-planting spouses, was in desperate need of the grace of God in Jesus.
I had found a safe place.
The renewal I experienced in those early years of ministry recovery and preparation for a new ministry was not only a blessing, but it was also the means of grace in my life that made continuing and even thriving in ministry possible.
I learned how to rest in the love of God and function out of my new identity in Jesus. The practical "gospel tools" I learned in those years have been life essentials for me over the past 12 years.
Do I forget the gospel? Yes. Do I get overcommitted? Yes. Do I get exhausted still? Sadly, yes.
I assume we all do.
That is one more reason why we need a safe place for pastors' wives to be honest about the real struggles of living on the journey as pilgrims who forget the gospel in the fog and need friends to help us remember.
And has it really been 12 years since I landed in the midst of my gospel-remembering rescue team?!
What a blessing it is today to be able to serve as a conduit of grace for other ministry wives just as those before me poured into my life!
When you give to support Parakaleo, you are investing in gospel renewal that empowers pastors' wives to experience and extend the implications of the gospel to their husbands, families, churches, and communities.
Your gift creates a ripple effect of grace that truly will pay eternal dividends!