I have loved the Lord Jesus Christ for as long as I can remember. He’s always been first in my heart and I remember when someone told me in High School that Nuns were married to Jesus I was like, “WOAH! I’d totally love to do that!” But since I wasn’t even Catholic that thought was fleeting…although the desire I had in that moment never left.
When the Lord finally led me into the Catholic Church I hoped beyond hope that perhaps Religious Life was going to be where He would lead me next. I had much learning and growing to do first though. A lot of prayer and preparation needed to happen, and the Lord has been my faithful teacher along the way.
Finally, in Fall 2018 I made a private commitment to the Lord to be all His. (In other words, I decided to no longer pursue marriage.) Overwhelming joy has filled my heart since then as I’ve used my singleness to freely love and serve those around me – because in the end my love and service to others is always ultimately for Him! Around that same time the Lord started preparing me on a deeper level for what was ahead. I continued to learn how to let go of my plans, how to die to myself, how to listen to Him more, how to grow in discipline…all without knowing what might lie ahead.
(I mean, technically I still have no real idea of what lies ahead, but I digress…)
After years of prayer and discernment it seems the Lord really is inviting me to be His Bride! (I’m engaged!) There is still a long journey ahead, but I’ve been accepted to begin formation to help The Canon’s Regular of the Immaculate Conception found a women’s order of Canonesses! The Canonesses Regular of the Immaculate Conception! (Basically, a Canoness is a fancy name for a Nun that prays all the hours of the office and focuses on ministering in the Church, usually alongside Canons/Priests.)
There are still obstacles in my journey though. Anyone entering into Religious Life needs to do so “unencumbered” AKA without debt. But as someone who could only work so much to support myself through College and my Master’s degree I unfortunately had to rely on loans and have therefore accrued a lot of debt. I’ve been downsizing through the years, selling my things, spending less money, and buying less all in the hope of getting out of debt just in case this day ever come…but I have not come far enough. Sigh. I need help.
They say it takes a Village to raise a Child – and honestly so many of you have been a part of my “raising” process through the years. Now I need to call on my village to raise up some money so I can be a Nun. Hahahaha! The very thing so many of you have been hoping I’d do is happening! But I need your help to fully and freely enter in to Religious Life!
Please prayerfully consider helping free me from these chains of debt so that I can enter in to this new life of ministry and prayer. And if you can’t donate anything – I completely understand because I’ve been there too! I do covet your prayers though. Debt is not the only hurdle ahead of me – it’s just a very tangible one. Religious life is all about dying to yourself and loving others in deeper and deeper ways and with that comes a lot of…well…difficulty and pain! Hahahaha! Joy too of course but boy howdy, I’ll take all the prayers anyone is willing to offer for me!
It is the Canon’s Regular of the Immaculate Conception who are sponsoring this GoFundMe so that you can be assured that your donations will go towards paying off my debt. And know that whether you donate financially or spiritually, you will always be remembered in my prayers as I will be regularly praying for all my benefactors.
Thank you for reading all this, thank you for your prayers, thank you for being a part of my life in big or little ways, and thank you if you’re able to donate anything at all. Whether you can donate or not, thank you for being a part of my life. I love you all more than you’ll probably ever know.