3 years ago I received the most exciting news of my life, I was pregnant! I was over-the-moon, and already in planning mode, and so so in love. Then 2 months later I had a miscarriage and my world came crashing down and I was destroyed. I had never realized or appreciated all that is involved with experiencing a miscarriage but I felt alone. Then unfortunately I experienced another miscarriage a few months later. I suffered in silence and couldn’t talk about what I had gone through/was going through and I felt like a shell of a person that was going through the motions. When I got pregnant for a 3rd time it was a lot of mixed emotions but I couldn’t let myself get excited even for one second because I knew the risk. My husband and I welcomed a beautiful baby boy and I thought that he would be my answer and that I would “forget” my past experiences. Truth is while my son is my everything, I still grieve the losses and wonder what they would’ve have been like.
I wish I had known then what I know now, that I didn’t have to do this alone. Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) is an amazing organization that ensures every mom and partner who is experiencing pregnancy after loss is able to find support and connection among peers and health care professionals who understand and validate the unique and complex experience of pregnancy after a loss.
I am very excited to not only run Boston on their behalf but also be an ambassador to the organization and host monthly meet-ups. My hope is that by sharing my story other women begin to feel more comfortable sharing their truth and that they know they are not alone.